At what? everything.
I have to have the fullest friends page. I have to be the hottest violinist on the block, I have to win whenever I fight. Problems with this? First off, I don't have the drive to go with the compulsion. I get in these viscious cycles as a result of such desires, because I just won't put the work in to be the best. One reason why for the time being I'm going to back off of competetiveness. But also, I lose learning opportunities. I get hung up on winning, and not on learning.
It's sooooo friggin' stupid, and decidedly unfun.
Second star to the right, and straight on till morning.
The aurora borealis is out tonight.