I want to write something here. And... it's an interesting feeling. I don't know quite what it is. Something... odd. Dreamy...
Shit... I feel kinda like I did this weekend at points- sadder, but that same energy is there.
I do feel good. Sad, but good at the same time. As I told Amanda, lighter.
It keeps going and going and going....
The Energizer Remy? I smell an ad campaign! I'm... tingly! Twitchy too... odd sensations all together. My hair hits the back of my neck the wrong way, and I spaz. But I'll sit here still, with all that anticipation of Christmas Eve.
I said it earlier tonight... things have to change. I had that feeling of the need for change for.. oh, awhile. I was trying to avoid deciding what needed to change, because I think I knew.
I'm proud, I didn't break my promise. I didn't run away. I'll admit, I came close. But I stayed until we both decided that it wasn't going to work.
I think bed would be good soon... maybe some meditative rituals. Speaking of the Way, Beyond the Wall of Sleep... old standbys. Perhaps when I have a tad more time I'll start composing my own rits better. Wait... I've got time now!
Sometimes, I'm so silly.