What is with these swings? Am I PMSing? Wrong plumbing, I know, but good lord... it's as bad as being on speed and heroin alternately. Or sometimes at the same time. I've gone from deleriously high spirited to the same blarg that has been plauging me for months.
Of course... I don't have to be blarg... I know this. But part of me wants to. I've just understood what my blarg is. It's this autonomous response... "Change something, or just die here." It's a kind of pain that I spent so long not recognizing, that it's become crippling.
Well... fuck that.
Of course... I don't have to be blarg... I know this. But part of me wants to. I've just understood what my blarg is. It's this autonomous response... "Change something, or just die here." It's a kind of pain that I spent so long not recognizing, that it's become crippling.
Well... fuck that.
