How Random Babbling Becomes Corporate Policy (t3knomanser) wrote,
How Random Babbling Becomes Corporate Policy
t3knomanser

You know, I'm always on the verge of assuming the worst about myself. Like, I tend to gravitate towards needy people, Shannon (no offense dear) was a prime example of that. Beth was too.

So wait... is this an obsession about needing to be needed? Am I just hungry for recognition and attention?

Or am I just actually nice. For some reason, I tend to leap towards the former. I tend to expect the worst from myself. Why is that?

Partially, it's because, more so than anyone else, I know what I'm capable of. I know the horrible things that I've done, and how much I, at the time, enjoyed them. I'm past most of that, now I just make stupid mistakes, but I always have that fear of becoming what I always think of as a monster.

But for right now, I just want to take care of people. And be taken care of.

But then again, who doesn't?































Zen space.
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