Pardon me as I fritz out from doing a Database class homework which had the deadline extended because soooo many people spent sooooo much time at Doc Vandenburg's office hours. Yeah, the DB project that I started at 10:30 or so, and that is due at 5pm tomorrow.
Joy, of joyful joys.
Alright, some things...
There is no such thing as a better person. You can never become a better person, so get that silly idea out of your head now. To believe that you can become a better person is a disparagment upon who you are now. If you don't like who you are now, like myself, suck it up, deal, and move on. FIDO.... Fuck it and Drive Over. If you don't like who you are and want to change, but don't know how, then experiment. Try things. You'll fail a few times, and from an expert in failure, it's good for you. Hell, even if it kills you, it might be good for you in a karmic sense.
But goddammit, when you're on a quest for identity, when it comes down to it, there's only one person you can rely on. You. Everyone else gives CONTEXT and MEANING to your identity... but the search for the who you are is a solitary quest. People don't understand why I tend to become a loner in certain circumstances, but that's why. Because I need to find the who, and then attempt to interpret it within a context.