I was vacant. Empty. All those bits of nastyness one can associate in my demeanor for the past year resurfaced. I hated it, reveled in it, and was too apathetic to care all at the same time. The joys of being Remy... and the perils.
I can't say that it isn't my fault. I have to claim responsibility. But it's one of those things... no matter how high minded you can be, no matter that you know you have no right to whine, it still hurts.
It faded as this day passed. Still annoying though. Perhaps tonight, as I drift to sleep, things will be better, and tomorrow will be a different day.
Amanda dear, I missed you today. I think you could have shaken me loose, more quickly than I could myself. I'm also sorry for how little we were able to talk today. ::sigh:: Perhaps it's for the best, because I have a feeling it would have erupted into one of our more infamous online battles.
For some reason... I've just been mad today.
