October 31st, 2001

run the fuck away

In the beginning

... it was prohpesied that there would be an ending. Well... maybe not at the time, but then again... endings happen.

And so, the long, often joyful, often painful courtship of the one and only Remy, and the ever lovely Amanda has come to a close. Instead of the previous endings, which were bangs, this was a whimper. A letting go...

And... it doesn't feel good. But it feels better than I did before.







I dunno...
  • Current Music
    Dashboard Confessional - Ender Will Save Us All
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Up up and away...

... away from me. Well it's all right, you can all sleep sound tonight, I'm not crazy..... or anything.
"




I want to write something here. And... it's an interesting feeling. I don't know quite what it is. Something... odd. Dreamy...



Shit... I feel kinda like I did this weekend at points- sadder, but that same energy is there.

I do feel good. Sad, but good at the same time. As I told Amanda, lighter.



Energized...

It keeps going and going and going....

The Energizer Remy? I smell an ad campaign! I'm... tingly! Twitchy too... odd sensations all together. My hair hits the back of my neck the wrong way, and I spaz. But I'll sit here still, with all that anticipation of Christmas Eve.



I said it earlier tonight... things have to change. I had that feeling of the need for change for.. oh, awhile. I was trying to avoid deciding what needed to change, because I think I knew.

I'm proud, I didn't break my promise. I didn't run away. I'll admit, I came close. But I stayed until we both decided that it wasn't going to work.



I think bed would be good soon... maybe some meditative rituals. Speaking of the Way, Beyond the Wall of Sleep... old standbys. Perhaps when I have a tad more time I'll start composing my own rits better. Wait... I've got time now!





Sometimes, I'm so silly.
  • Current Music
    David Bowie and Trent Reznor - I'm Afraid of Americans
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The sky is blue, and all the leaves are green...

The sun's as warm as a baked pataaaata! I think I know, exactly what I mean, when I say it's a Shpadoinkle day!



In other news... Remy has leapt up and snatched himself from the jaws of his stupidity. For those of you confused, let me just say that my little time travel experiment was a grand sucsess... of course, I took no precautions, so um... don't be surprised if some really wierd things happen today. Don't know what sort of disturbances a trip back in time through the astral might have.



Apologies in advance if anyone is struck by lightening.





annnnnnnddd... before anyone jumps to conclusions about my insensitivity, be all jazzed after a break up etc- note: I am sad. It was a painful thing. But there's an amazing amount of good stuff potential, like for example, my time travel adventure. In other words... I've gotta keep moving or I might miss something really neet. And since I'm surrounded by neatness already... I'm already pretty happy.



Besides... 'Manda's really neet.
  • Current Music
    the voices in my head! (GO CHUCK!)
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Muchly neeto needo

whereami? Gotta love virtual adepts.



Why is it that I start all my posts as of late with some nonsequiter?



Isn't nonsequiter a great word?

I may hunt down and kill someone today. Maybe I won't kill them... instead I'll make them chuckle. But I'll hunt them down anyway.





I have the greatest friends page in the world. Love my friends page. Love my friends. I have cool friends.









What do I do now? The eternal "what next?" I don't know what to do next. I've got 20 minutes till my next class (me? go to my 2:30 webdesign section? *gasp*) and I don't know what I want to do.

Here's a place to start I guess.
  • Current Music
    Lisa Loeb - Taffy
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neeeeet...

I officially have the coolest win on campus. The halloween decorations they did are just.... great. I mean, they even paid attention to the little details, like putting leaves on the floor for that neet sound when people walk. They shredded garbage bags and made curtains to cut the view, and of course used the requisit strobe lights and black lights.

Goooood shiz.
  • Current Music
    the theme from halloween (it's on in the hall)