... it was prohpesied that there would be an ending. Well... maybe not at the time, but then again... endings happen.
And so, the long, often joyful, often painful courtship of the one and only Remy, and the ever lovely Amanda has come to a close. Instead of the previous endings, which were bangs, this was a whimper. A letting go...
And... it doesn't feel good. But it feels better than I did before.
... away from me. Well it's all right, you can all sleep sound tonight, I'm not crazy..... or anything.
I want to write something here. And... it's an interesting feeling. I don't know quite what it is. Something... odd. Dreamy...
Shit... I feel kinda like I did this weekend at points- sadder, but that same energy is there.
I do feel good. Sad, but good at the same time. As I told Amanda, lighter.
It keeps going and going and going....
The Energizer Remy? I smell an ad campaign! I'm... tingly! Twitchy too... odd sensations all together. My hair hits the back of my neck the wrong way, and I spaz. But I'll sit here still, with all that anticipation of Christmas Eve.
I said it earlier tonight... things have to change. I had that feeling of the need for change for.. oh, awhile. I was trying to avoid deciding what needed to change, because I think I knew.
I'm proud, I didn't break my promise. I didn't run away. I'll admit, I came close. But I stayed until we both decided that it wasn't going to work.
I think bed would be good soon... maybe some meditative rituals. Speaking of the Way, Beyond the Wall of Sleep... old standbys. Perhaps when I have a tad more time I'll start composing my own rits better. Wait... I've got time now!
Sometimes, I'm so silly.
The sun's as warm as a baked pataaaata! I think I know, exactly what I mean, when I say it's a Shpadoinkle day!
In other news... Remy has leapt up and snatched himself from the jaws of his stupidity. For those of you confused, let me just say that my little time travel experiment was a grand sucsess... of course, I took no precautions, so um... don't be surprised if some really wierd things happen today. Don't know what sort of disturbances a trip back in time through the astral might have.
Apologies in advance if anyone is struck by lightening.
annnnnnnddd... before anyone jumps to conclusions about my insensitivity, be all jazzed after a break up etc- note: I am sad. It was a painful thing. But there's an amazing amount of good stuff potential, like for example, my time travel adventure. In other words... I've gotta keep moving or I might miss something really neet. And since I'm surrounded by neatness already... I'm already pretty happy.
Besides... 'Manda's really neet.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN (the best holiday of the year).
I officially have the coolest win on campus. The halloween decorations they did are just.... great. I mean, they even paid attention to the little details, like putting leaves on the floor for that neet sound when people walk. They shredded garbage bags and made curtains to cut the view, and of course used the requisit strobe lights and black lights.
This is a blank space that I am compelled to fill. But I can't really talk about today, just because it was odd... hard to explain. I'm still kinda odded out by it all...
It was just kinda nice in that depressing way.
sniffle... this is a kinda sad song at the moment...