Today was a bad remy day.
I was vacant. Empty. All those bits of nastyness one can associate in my demeanor for the past year resurfaced. I hated it, reveled in it, and was too apathetic to care all at the same time. The joys of being Remy... and the perils.
I can't say that it isn't my fault. I have to claim responsibility. But it's one of those things... no matter how high minded you can be, no matter that you know you have no right to whine, it still hurts.
It faded as this day passed. Still annoying though. Perhaps tonight, as I drift to sleep, things will be better, and tomorrow will be a different day.
Amanda dear, I missed you today. I think you could have shaken me loose, more quickly than I could myself. I'm also sorry for how little we were able to talk today. ::sigh:: Perhaps it's for the best, because I have a feeling it would have erupted into one of our more infamous online battles.
For some reason... I've just been mad today.
Good thing for the day...
I obtained the Mage Knight figure known as the "Technomancer"... ::drool:: He has magic levitation, which means I can just shoot figrures at my opponents! It's freaking awesome!!
So anyway, where is the Remymind today?
It's swung a bit leftwise, making it into somewhat more temperate regions, which is a comfort. I've been cranking through Myth book after Myth book with much goodness... lovely novels those.
I've already ranted about how cool my Technomancer is, but I'm going to do it some more. I mean, any shock that the t3knomanser likes his technomancer? It gives me the ability to throw guys at my opponents! BLOOP! Now you've got a troll suddenly in range to cap your ass!
I'm warm and comfy, but also very tired.... Reminds me... I need to find a way to track down the resonant portions of Tesla's being... call it a seance or what have you, minus the mumbo jumbo, time, space, and existance aren't nearly as fixed as we tend to think... the vibrations that were tesla are still out there someplace... and I'd like to meet the man...
The neetest thing about hunting MP3's on the web... tracking down those unknown, alternative to alternative songs... stuff that is just unknown, or not really out there. That's also what makes WDST cool... as an indie station, they do the courtesy of playing such odd tracks that other stations won't touch...
What do you credit it to when you find an mind altering, alchemal force hidden within something as innocuous as a Myth book. Is it a credit to Robert Asprin (Bobby Bufferin), the author of this charmingly humorous series, to have a character tale that affects the reader so, or perhaps it's a signal to my preceptiveness, to reach out and grab the magick that is out there? Or, even more likely, a sign of my desperation to change my status?
So it is with a strange sensation that I set down the seventh book in the Myth series- my third in two days. I was flipping through looking for a specific quote, but this one kinda leapt out at me... "I've felt scared and alone since I hit this dimension... or would have if you hadn't been along. I'm so screaming afraid of making a mistake that I'd probably freeze up and do nothing unless I had somebody in tow to applaud when I did ight and to carp at me wheen I did wrong... just so I'd know the difference. That's how insecure I am... I don't even trust my own judgment as to wheter I'm right or not in what I do."
Not quite how I feel, but an apt voicing of some of my concerns in the way I interact with people...
"Forget trying to be strong. Your real strength is in being a warm, caring person. When you try to be strong, it comes across as being cold and insensitive."
This one kinda scared me in it's reflection in many things I've said... go Bobby Buffeirn...
"The phrase 'Today is the first day of the rest of your life' was almost a cliche across the dimensions. It occured to me tahta a better phrasing would be 'Your whole life to date has been training for right now!' The question wasn't what I had or didn't have so much as what I was going to do with it."