I am now.
I am Me.
That... that is the triad of power. Yay Triad.
I'm feeling very tired, despite the amount of sleep I had, which was actually reasonable for a change of pace. A wonderful reasonable sleep at that. That had nothing to do with the fact that I spent the night at Cate's. Nothing at all. Not a thing. Yes, I'm being sarcastic.
I'm in a very... wry mood. Wry and mellow.
For those of you concerned that Cate and I may be taking things to fast, I'd like to point out that we have only had two dates in four days. While that may be a rather quick, that's not absurdly fast. No need to mention the fact that both of those "two dates" have exceeded twenty four hours. Thursday night through till Saturday morning, then Saturday night through till... well, not so long ago.
And it's been wonderful. Wonderful happens to be the word of the weekend. When you get hopelessly enamoured it comes up alot. On the down side, I have been getting mood-swingy. Another depression cycle? Definitely interesting timing if that's the case. Because well... Cate induces insane levels of happiness in the Remy. And incredible levels of hope in the Remy. In other words, I'm not sure a depression-cycle can stand up to the Cate.
In other news, tomorrow is my retake of the exam. I'm looking forward to it. Hopefully I can get out while the gettin's good.
TeslasBrat: I'm actually thinking my moodswingy is just me actually cycling again. I tend to, on a fairly regular basis have these horrible fits of dark depression. I generally forget about them in the interm though.
TeslasBrat: Once I'm in them, I tend to forget the good stuff. It's vaguely annoying- well, more than vaguely, it is annoying.
Cate: It can happen. Just know that I am here and will be trying my damndest to make you remember that there is more than misery in the world. I hate seeing people suffering.
Cate: Especially the ones I care about.
TeslasBrat: ::grin:: Oh don't worry dear, as I'm posting in my livejournal, I'm not sure even my worst depression cycle can stand up against you.
TeslasBrat: Actually, I'm pretty sure it can't. You're too powerfully you. It doesn't stand a chance.
Cate: Good. And I'm pretty sure mine will wither before you.
TeslasBrat: ::grin:: We'll just be oppresively ourselves, and instead end up really being liberating for everyone. It'll be great.
Cate: I haven't tested this yet, because I've been really good at fighting the depression and insecurity I almost felt creepin up, but I can almost guarantee that I won't be able to do that every time.
TeslasBrat: it'll happen.
Cate: I intend to be aggressively myself. I will never let anyone (including myself) stuff me into a box again.
TeslasBrat: w00t! I think that's the last trap for me... Me. Gotta be careful about that.
Yes... I am all about this relationship.