My crush list is on the verge of being clean. I've been going through, and spending time around people with whom I've had a slight crush, and BOOM... it goes away. "Waaaaiiiitttt... sorry no, I saw something else there for a second, but it wasn't what I thought it was."
I've got one person on my crush list to spend time with and shove 'em off, but I know I will. It's a matter of internalizing the realization that they aren't what I want.
What do I want? The Dragon and I summed it up pretty well.
Did I post about this? I don't remember. Ah well, it bears repeating.
The dragon showed me an image. I was looking at an individual in my crushlist, and reached out to them, and opened them, like a door, and on the otherside, I saw the best aprts of myself, the self I was trying to be, the self I wanted to be. And I realized that they were doing the exact same thing. That is my paradigm relationship. Both people using the other to transform themselves into something better.
It's moments like these that the infinite is tangible and full and empty And my text formatting is meaning less and just done to look novel but without purpose i can imagine amanda cringing thinking this horrible poesy and the bane it would be to leslie and how it's not really anygood as prose either and ranting about my formatting but you know what? I don't care </blockquote>