But, that doesn't mean that I have to wallow in it either- I don't have to lose control all the time. What I need to do is really get to know those loss of control moments, examine them, and understand them for the goodness that they are- for there is some there. Then I can work on directing them somehow. Lord knows there's alot of force behind them, amazing amounts of energy. Give that force a form... and then we've got something to work with.
This could be very, very cool.