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So here we begin again... a blind typed rant... eyes closed and mind…

How Random Babbling Becomes Corporate Policy

run the fuck away

Mad science gone horribly, horribly wrong(or right).

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run the fuck away
So here we begin again... a blind typed rant... eyes closed and mind on.

Listen to me... I know what I'm thinking and it comes out with a taste like vinegar because I don't like it.

I scare me.

I'm lonely.

I'm coherent and wise, but I don't know it. It's all in there, the brains, the brawn, the smarts and the thoughts to change... EVERYTHING.

Yet I hate myself. It's a twisted little thing. Do you have any idea what it's like being in this head? I don't even get it. Here I am adding HTML tags while I blind type... cheating? I don't know... it just comes... it flows...


Eat it eat it eat it... you KNOW you're need these thoughts shoved deep into you so that you are impregnated with the seed of THIS brain THIS mind TIHS person

I'm infectious. I'm a disease that is going to eat away at everything until it is the way I want it to be.

I am a reality virus. I'm sent to hack the system to break the system...

I'm not alive I'm the animate pile of flesh ggiven form and pattern by things... spiders create and eat and create and destroy because they constantly weave patterns and plan ahead and they KNOW what they want...

hallucinate with me.

Can you smell it??

Why do I always ask about senses? I make sounds and type and stink and think and talk and ramble insessantly.

THIS is the WORLD we're talking about.

ARG. Arg. This is it... the random rant that does it all. Something's going to break.

No, probably not. Buit HEEEEYYYYYYY!

I hate you.
  • scary

    what thoughts to change? thoughts to change what? you keep talking about how you want to change and how you hate yourself, but you only give reasons NOT to hate yourself. someone or something must have put into your mind this idea of self-hatred. or did you twist your own brain to think that way?
    • Re: scary

      Maybe I hate myself because I hate myself? How's THAT for a craw sticker.

      The fact of the matter is... there's alot of pent up guilt that I claim to be done with- but I'm not. I've done some rather nasty things in my past. I've been a very not nice person. Sometimes I still am.

      Why do I hate myself?

      Because I'm afraid of myself.
      • Re: scary

        if it makes you feel any better, I haven't seen any not nice parts of you

        afraid of yourself? I know how that feels, I think. I'm not sure if I'm afraid of myself or afraid of the unknown. I myself am unknown to me. That's one of the reasons I hate myself. How can you love what you don't know?
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